the other week i think i had a small anxiety attack. i wrote a long email to my mother, whinging about feelings of doubt and uncertainty. part of me still feels the need to have a plan... the need to settle... the need to "grow up." although i am very much enjoying my time abroad, for some reason i have this looming fear that i'm going to wake up one day and be living in my parents house at age 30 with nothing to show but some photos, fun memories, and stamps in a passport. i know, i know... these are all amazing experiences... blah blah blah. let me emphasize the fact that i in no way, shape, or form want to trade places with anyone in monroe, ga..... but having some sort of plan for the future would be a little reassuring.
while i can't say that i've completely shaken these feelings of.... well, self-administered pressure, i can say that today i had such a great day and i'm back on cloud 9!
today was a good day at work (for once). it was labour day today... and holiday pay is extremely lucrative. i basically made in one day what i usually make in a week. happy times! plus, it was dead and everyone was just so relaxed. (again, for once). during my break, i had coffee with emily and monica, my two aussie friends. i really love those girls. it was so nice to just sit and chat and be a girl! i haven't had a pleasant, genuine conversation like that in a while.
also, i've been getting to know another girl from work, jess. she's british and so funny. i honestly kind of overlooked her at first... i'm not sure why... but we went to a co-worker's birthday party together after work one night and had such a great time. we have plans to go out this wednesday and considering the fact that we are meeting around 5 for happy hour and continuing from there.... well, it should prove to be yet another "sydney night."
OH, i'm supposed to go rock climbing tomorrow!? my roomie was invited to be a part of some "rock climbing group" that was formed by her co-workers. i feel like i will probably end up embarrassing myself terribly... but i would love to give it a go anyhow. AND i'm finally going to sign up for that surf camp tomorrow!! i will post on that as soon as i do. i was debating between surf camp and fiji (long story short, a friend invited me to join her on her trip), but fiji is pretty expensive when it's all said and done and i have a lot of other things i want to do. like learn to surf!! i'm determined to be a badass surfer chick! if it's the last thing i do!
um....... also going to sign up for a pottery class tomorrow. i need to start filling my days with creative and/or sporty activities. the other reason i was feeling a tad down last week was because it seemed as though i was coming to a standstill in sydney... not really doing anything different than i would be if i were back in the states. can't have that!
ok. i think that's about it. i actually took my camera out the other day so i could start photographing cool stuff... but of course, it wasn't charged. *sigh.
love yall!
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